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Sunday, October 23, 2005

I think I am stupid.

I got myself into another cycle of depression again.

I deliberately play depressing songs again and again until I couldn't stand it anymore and break down.

My heart felt so heavy with melancholy. Stifling it was. Yet my mind was blank I wasn't thinking of anything. I just felt the surge of sorrow in me.










会不会 有时候
就在一瞬间 心被一股莫名的伤心压抑
直到感到窒息
身上的每一个细胞都充满了忧郁元素
随时都会爆发
却又被不自觉存在的自卫能力阻挡
很想释放的感觉被阻碍
而也一再回弹伤害自己
遍体鳞伤
很无奈 很无助

突然很想放下所拥有的一切
到一个无人角落 好好的疗伤
只有星光的闪烁
一点一点的
和自己分享受伤

我的理想乐园
不见天光
无尽黑暗是我专属的保护罩
不奢望 不祈求
只渴望心中留一片宁静










ps: nah, i didn't cry at all.

"Faaaaaahed" @ 8:08 PM

 












 

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